Thursday, April 18, 2013

Children aren't coloring books.

You don't get to fill them with your favorite colors.

 Khaled Hosseini

I have an amazing child.

He is smart.
Incredibly smart.
He is also witty,
hilarious,
joyful,
creative,
and kindhearted.

On a good day,
he can be difficult.
On a bad day,
he can be impossible.

I know Kiddo is filled wondrous things,
and I will have guided him along his path.
But it is not easy.

I often think that this child was meant to be mine.
Few others could appreciate,
admire,
and respect him the way I do.

He was given to me so that I may learn
patience,
kindness,
compassion,
and unwavering love
to an extent that I could not without him.

But it's hard.
Some days parenting him feels like an insurmountable hurdle.

How can someone who is so clearly destined to
change the world
be so
picky,
fastidious,
argumentative,
and frustrating?
So. Frustrating.

But the fact is,
intelligence and difficult go hand in hand.
One can rarely exist without the other.
And he is no exception.

On those days when I feel like running away from it all,
I remember that I am raising,
teaching,
guiding,
and above all,
loving,
someone who is destined for greatness.

Every minute of
angst,
frustration,
anger,
impatience,
aggravation,
 and sleeplessness
will have been worth it.

Every laugh he provides me
is the best laugh I have ever had.

Every day spent with him
is the best day ever.

Every tear shed is filled with 
hope.
And love.
Always love.

I would do it all over again.
Every single moment.
The good.
The bad.
The ugly.

He is worth it.
And it all adds up to the greatest experience of my life.
I am a better person for loving him.

This one is for you,
my soul mate.

4 comments:

  1. I never dreamed parenting could be so hard, complicated, exhausting, seemingly impossible, at the same time be immeasurably rewarding. You have written a beautiful post.

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    1. Thanks, Nicki! You summed it up perfectly. Being a mother is my single greatest accomplishment... though it rather feels like a marathon. :)

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  2. You are an amazing Mom! I just want you to know that. :) Beautiful post.

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  3. So, so beautiful! I hope that you print and save this for your son to read when he is older.

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